What the heck!!

Damn wordpress, why’d you go and change it around again. I’m not sure if I’m going to like this!

 

Day 12

Yesterday I dropped the oldest off at Sunday School with grandmom and headed off to the gym.  I did the treadmill for 45 minutes, walking for 3 and running for 5.  Boy am I still sore from Saturday’s class.   But I stuck it out and did my 5 min run (jog) everytime my 3 minutes of walking was up.

Today I didn’t have to go to work so I had the boys.  I dumped them at day care so I could run to the gym.  And again I did the treadmill.  I upped my walking and running mph’s by .1.  Which I’m going to do again tomorrow.  Unless I go to a class.  There’s a strenth class tomorrow night at 7.  If I can make it there on time I think I’m going to do that and maybe hop on the treadmill afterwards, it depends on how I feel.  But I’m definitely not looking forward to going to work tomorrow, especially since I haven’t been there in over a week.  But I have to go back at some point and the 2 year old may not survive another day with me! Boy I can’t wait for this (st)age to be over.  But then again there are some great moments too.  I just have to remeber that when I’m ready to rip my hair out.

I’m using today as my official weigh and measurement day.  I’ve still have lost 5 pounds, so hopefully it’ll stay off.  And I’ll have an idea if what I’m doing is working by seeing if I lost any inches too.

 

Day 10

Well I got up in time to make it to the class and boy did it kick my butt!  It was called ‘Power Pump’ and it incorporated everything in that darn room.  We used a weighted bar, free weights, a step, a ball, a mat and it was cardio.  For a whole hour I tried my best to keep up with the rest of the fit ‘n lean regulars as I stumbled my way through the workout.  But I did it, for the most part, and I’m going to try hard  to make it every week.  It’ll help because I actually knew someone there and she goes every week.  She was my high school lunch lady!! And she was the nice one!   So now I have a ‘class’.  Every Saturday morning I’ll be at the gym from 8:30 – 9:30 while everyone else is in their cozy beds watching cartoons.  But at least I’ll be healthier!!

 

Day 9

Well I met with a trainer today.  We worked on the treadmill, she had me walk and run on the treadmill for half an hour.  We decided that since my main goal is weight loss, I really should aim to go 6 times a week until I’m down to my goal weight and then go 3 – 4 times a week to maintain.  I will mainly be doing cardio.

Technically I’m down 5 pounds but  I contribute that to my illness.  I really haven’t loss any inches though.  So I won’t be surprised if I don’t lose any weight this week.  As long as I don’t gain.

I am going to try my best to get up tomorrow and go to a class in the morning for cardio.  Right now I think my schedule is going to be Sunday, Monday, Wednesday, Friday – Treadmill/other cardio equipment; Tuesday, Saturaday – classes; take Thursdays off.  But we’ll see how that goes.

 

Day 6

Okay, still dying at home with strep.  Amoxicilian sucks! But that’s all I can take with having to nurse the baby, so I guess it’s going to be a longer recovery.  I missed one Thanksgiving dinner, I better not miss another. And luckily my next trainer appointment isn’t until Friday so hopefully I’ll be much better by then.  Oh, and I’ve lost 7 pounds on the strep diet.  It’s called I can’t eat anything solid at this time.

 

Day 2 & 3

So I weighed and measured and recorded and do not like the numbers I’m seeing! I’m only going to measure once a week.

Now it was off to the gym even though i didn’t want to go.  My first training session is scheduled for Saturday.  But when I got there my trainer was in a knee brace.  She injured herself at cheerleading.  We rescheduled for later next week.  So off to the treadmill for me.

I walked my first mile, ran .5 walked again for another .5, then ran another .5.  I finished off walking to end a 5k at 51:57.  Boy was I drained!!

Well I had all the best intentions of going today even though I am sore all over. However I can’t eat, drink, swallow or barely talk.  We called the docs and they’re treating me for strep due to all my symptoms.  Great, just when I get started I already have a set back.  At least my  training appointment was rescheduled!  I’m just going to see how things go and if I’m going to make it over tomorrow.  I really don’t want to make my self worse for the holiday!

 

Day 1

OH NO!!! What did I do last night?? I hope I didn’t make a big mistake.  I better be committed. I guess only time will tell.

 

Anyone out there??

Sorry, it’s been awhile, but I’m back.  Well maybe. . . . . we’ll see. 

 

Craziness

We’ve been crazy busy.  Wonderboy was sick again and sharing the puking/pooping fun with the rest of the family.  2 1/2 weeks later I think we’re all better. . . . .

Healthy enough just in time for my INTERVIEW! Yup, I went on an interview.  With the same district but it would/should be a huge increase in pay.  It’s in administration and I would be an assistant director which is pretty high up there.  I would be responsible for analyzing data from our standardized tests.  I already analyze data with our pregnant and parenting information, just on a smaller scale.  Instead of handling 200 students, I’d be handling 18000 students worth of data.

They are doing second interviews next week.  I hope to hear by next Monday/Tuesday if I have a second interview.  I don’t know. . . . I’ve heard rumors that they were looking at hiring within the department, but then that will open another job that I may be eligible for and get more pay.  We’ll see.

 

What a Jerk move

So I was actually getting out of the house without the boys and not going to work.  I was off to a bridal shower.  But I had to make one stop on the way.  I needed a card.  I ran into the closest food store since I had to get cash back for the tolls.  And that’s when it happened to me; I was discriminated against because I am heavy and not as pretty (right now I am sitting on a 5′5 frame at 199 pounds).  Now I know some of you may read this and think I was too sensitive or reading the situation wrong, and that may be.  But that’s not how I felt.

I picked out a card fairly quick since I was running late.  There were 5 lines jutting out in to the aisles.  I was going to stand in line longer than it took me to pick out this darn card.  As I headed down to the last two aisles, since they seemed the shortest, I noticed the lane closed sign up on the one.  I’ve worked at a grocery store when I was younger and I remember trying to leave at the end of my shift.  People would always try and sneak to the end of my line after I put up my sign and boy would it piss me off.  So I stepped into the line across from the closed register and waited.

As I stood there shifting back and forth impatiently I watched the other line slowly dwindle.  My cashier was finally checking out the person in front of me, who had a good amount of items.  The closed register was finally done and he started to clean up his station.

When all of a sudden I heard, pssst.

I look over to the closed register as did the people behind me; a couple, athletic build, blond, cute couple.  The cashier was looking at them and said, “I can check you out real quick if you want”.  And without hesitation they shifted over with their 10 – 12 items.  And there I stood with my card in hand waiting as I heard him say, “I feel bad seeing you wait, I can take you real quick.”

What just happened.  What the . . . . .

How is it that they were invited over and I wasn’t.  I was standing there longer and I only had a card, that’s it.  He could easily see me because there was nothing in the middle to spilt the two registers, the belts were both on the inside of the aisle so the registers both sat on the outside and there was one big aisle to walk through.

My conculsion is that I appear ugly because of excess weight.  Now don’t get me wrong, I am not saying heavy set people are ugly.  I’m saying I am ugly when I am fat.  I have a very good friend that is heavier and she is really pretty.  I couldn’t imagine her thin.  She wouldn’t look right.  I feel the same about Queen Latifa.  She looks great.  She would not look good thin/skinny.

So there I stood, fighting back tears, trying to hold back from making a scene.  You can’t just randomly take customers after you have closed your lane.  There are only three types of people I would consider it okay, elderly, pregnant or a parent alone with a crying baby.  These two definitely did not fit any of these profiles.

So why were they invited over to the closed aisle and neither I nor anyone else was?

I wear my old ID tags behind my new one that I have to get every year at work.  When someone asks me why, I flip them over to about four years ago and tell them, “This is what I used to look like before kids, I haven’t always looked like this”.